My blog has been forming cobwebs I know. Truth is, I don’t feel bad about it. Please don’t hate me for saying so. These last three months, I intentionally went “offline” so I can focus on taking care of my two babies. Well three babies, if I were to add the husband to the mix. I’m actually grateful that my procedure was a Caesarian because that bought me a lot of time to really be there for them.
Despite the sleepless nights and ugly leak stains on my shirt…despite getting really sore arms from holding my chubby baby boy all the freaking time! Not to mention going insane when T & S start bawling together for God knows what reason… my heart is full knowing these two babies are mine and all these adventures only mean one thing, they need me.
Just a few days away from going back to work, my heart dips a little. No not a little, a lot. I’m going to miss being the first one to hug my girl when she comes home from school. I’m going to miss being the first one she runs to when she needs a glass of water, a playmate or she needs me to wash her butt. I’m going to miss carrying my boy the whole day even if my arms can’t take it anymore. I’ll miss nursing him at all times of the day and singing to him and doing all sorts of crazy stupid things just to make him smile.
They say going back to work the second time around is harder. I couldn’t agree more. But that’s life. When I’m back in the office and rushing about in meetings and replying to emails, I’ll have this photo on my desktop wallpaper to remind me that I have these two waiting for me when I get home.